It was November of 2007 and we decided we wanted another beautiful baby. December came and on the 13th we found out we were going to have another one. You would be due the 25th of August. But, for some reason we weren't very excited like we were with our first born. On December 21st we had our first ultrasound but we could not see a heartbeat we were not sure what was going on. We were so scared but we had another appointment on the 3rd of January and everything was ok. January and Feburary came and went.
Then, it was March the 10th and I started having contractions they lasted for a few days. Then on the 25th I finally got to feel you move it was so amazing again. On April the 4th we were going to get it confirmed that you were a little girl (or so we thought), came time and you were a boy what we asked the x-ray tech are you sure she said yes no mistake. I started crying I wanted a little girl so bad but then you turned you head and smiled in the ultrasound pic and I said its fine we are going to have another wonderful, healthy baby boy. I went home and told God he needed to name you because I did not have a boys' name picked out. He told me Joshua David. Ok, so I told your daddy he did not like it but oh well, that's what God named you and that was final.
On April 7th was the scariest day of my life we had the ultrasound results and it said you had cysts on the brain, heart defect, fluid on the lung, and a swollen kidney. We did not know what to do but tell the family everyone was so scared. Its finally April 23 and today I had contractions again I think it was just because of all the stress. I did not have any more contractions until May 29th and on the 30th we went to the hospital I was dehydrated the I went home. Started having contractions again on the 2nd of June but I did not go in this time not until the 5th and again I was dehydrated. I was having contractions on and off for a few more weeks went in the hospital a few times but nothing major.
Today, was June 17 and today was the first time they asked me it might be a good idea to consider termination (that was out of the question). We were 30 weeks today but, I had so much fluid I was measuring 35 weeks. On July 12th was Christians birthday party and that night Aunt Cathy and me set up for side of the room it was so cute.
Today July 18th was the day and it started about 3am I woke up having horrible contractions and about 5am Daddy took me to the hospital and they broke my water at 8am I was alone because Daddy took Bubba back home to go back to sleep but daddy got there soon after. At 12:44pm you weighed 5lbs 11oz and 19 1/4 inches long. we did not hear you cry very loud and then you were taken away very fast daddy followed you to the nursery. We did not get to see you until later that night. I was so scared when I walked in they said you were breathing on your own but then you were on a ventilator (not sure what they were thinking.) I ask Dr. Colosso if you were going to make it he said I cannot guarantee your life how am I going to guarantee his. That devastated me. You were put on chest tubes the next day. We had a horrible day time nurse she was there all the time and she watch every move we made she was like a mother hawk.
I didn't understand at the time but I wasn't in love with you like a mother should be with her child. I asked your daddy if he loved you he said yes just not the way we loved Christian when we first meet him. It might have been because we were so scared we didn't know if we were going to be able to keep you here or if God was going to take you home, whatever it was we wanted the feeling to pass soon.
The 26th of July you were finally able to be taken off the vent and put on oxygen we finally got to hold you for the first time. So about 2 weeks went by and we finally got that in love feeling me and your daddy looked at each other and for the first time we knew you were ours and God was not going to take you. We were so in love with you from that moment on.
During the duration of the rest of your stay here at the NICU you were put on 8 to 9 chest tubes and different kinds of meds. to help keep the fluid off. They also, changed you formula 3x during this time.
On, August 18th you were weaned off of oxygen and it was up hill from there. It was about 4 weeks into the horrible time at the hospital and I blew up I told Dr. Colosso he is going to have to get me another day time nurse I cannot do it any longer with Michelle. And, by the end of the day we were moved to a different area and nurse.
The 24th we got to stay in a parent room with you and you got to have your first real bath. On the 25th of August was you due date and Praise God it was your take home date. You were a beautiful baby boy and you weighed 6lbs and 12oz. Wow, what God can do. On, the 27 we took you to your Pulmanologist and she put you back on oxygen and back on the same formula as they had you in the NICU. As for the lungs go the right one on the top in slightly collapsed and it probably will be forever.
On the 1st of October we took you to the Cardiologist and he told us you might have Noonan's Syndrome. As, for the heart goes you were going to be OK, but you might need to have a balloon placed soon you have a PVS. On the 7th of October we had to go to the Urologist for your kidney he was not real concerned he said he just wanted to have follow-ups. On October 29th we took you to the Pulmanologist and the tested you for Noonan's Syndrome. They also started weaning you off of oxygen.
Well, This month you started physical therapy with the Arkansas Pediatrics Therapy in Van
Van Buren.
Today was November 8 and it was the first day and you reached for me I was so excited. Today is now November 12 and today we found out you had Noonan's we were so upset but you are going to. Today is November 18 you are 4 months today and you started Physical Therapy.
We are now in December and it is the 7th and today we dedicated you at Roland First Assembly of God and Jonathan Cox did the dedication. It's the 12th and you ate cereal with milk in it. Its the 13th now and I am bored today I guess because we opened the gifts today for Christmas why I really don't know but we did. The 18th you are finally 5 months and you can wear 0-3month clothing.
Yeah, Praise God you are 6 months old you made it to a crucial milestone. January 18th 2009.
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